work in progress
*Tuesday, November 06, 2007*
the ibanking thing's screwed. yest i checked, about $100+ disappeared from my account and i was shocked. i was wondering like hey where the hell did my money go. and seriously considered hiring someone to manage my finances(although its a minute amount). i thought i'd spent it unknowingly like water. and i couldnt recall at all where all that money went. and when i just checked again *poof* its back. but i dont feel reassured at all. im thinking of opening an account with some other bank coz its so lousy! i should complain for the unneccessary shock that caused. too bad i didnt print out the transaction history page. argh. i will be smarter next time.
Haruki Murakami (according to hx) places a lot of emphasis on a person's twentieth birthday. as though people are supposed to change and suddenly grow up as they leave teenagehood. hx asked me whether i feel that way, or did i ask her i cant remember. we said we'll talk about it another day coz theres lots to talk about this. haha i finished his book, Norwegian Wood a few days ago. many people have said tt its a good book. for me, its better than Kafka or should i put it in another way. hmm.. its probably something i would prefer to read. less imaginary, less fictitious. i prefer non fiction, but sometimes non fiction gets a lil too boring. haha ok im side tracking.
anyway, the importance of the twentieth year of a person's life was mentioned in Norwegian Wood( i typed wooF. hahahaha damn funny). and i was set thinking about it. probably a lot of changes have taken place for me throughout this time i've been 20 but i think the transition from 19 to 20 is more significant to me. changes usually do not take place overnight, its pretty gradual for me.
i need to give it some thought, in depth to understand what im going through or what has taken place. but in a nutshell, i feel a lil suffocated. there're so many things i need to accomplish, so many goals to set, so much knowledge i need to acquire. and i feel that any amount of effort i put in is/will never be enough. because i lost out for the major part of the time in my teenage years, wont elaborate. Lost time can never be recovered thats all i can say. sigh...
*this post was inspired by sm. haha
anw, you got ice cream i didnt. damn. haha help me suggest this to her so i can get mine too :D
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