work in progress
*Wednesday, October 18, 2006*
im living a lie
although theres training 4 times a week and new friends in my life, i still feel empty. sh said we're fun after she saw the photos and stuff. yeah its pretty fun talking to new people and taking photos and all but thats only part of what people see. i blog not to show other people how happy i am or how fun my life is but just to keep this as a record of my life. so that i'll know what i've been doing with my life since i have a memory of a dory. haha.. but somehow i feel that im living a lie. no one really knows what i do or how i think. im not blaming anyone or trying to gain pity or seeking attention. just that i've been really caught up in this "im living a lie" thing that its disturbing my life quite a bit. especially when im alone.
im not really making a lot of sense and the entry's pretty disorganised. cant be bothered. i write what i want.
'empty' is appearing too many times in my blog
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