work in progress
*Tuesday, August 08, 2006*
deprived school
roadshow's over. glad that i earned some money haha. it wasnt like wah very fun but not bad. being able to be kept busy the whole day rocks. brings my mind off many things and gives me some reason to be living. do not be mistaken. its not that i would want to end my life or something but being busy and stuff gives me a sense of purpose and allows for a clear mind. well at least i know what im doing. working, earning money etc...
its back to school this wk and damn it. 3 days of school this wk and 2days are gone. gonna be free on wed thurs fri. nobody's free and im seeing hx everyday. haha so sick o seeing each other right hx? we agreed that we should start making new friends. not only for the selfish purpose of having more company and entertainment, but also for another selfish purpose, for networking. HAHA okay im kiddin, just wanna know more people, have fun, experience more stuff that kinda thing.
i need a job. for money and also to kill time. theres tooo much time. but to find a job with flexible hours is not really easy. and to find a job that i would not resent going everytime would be very difficult as well. lol. im just a sucker at work. easily bored, not committed, unfocused (am i talking about the same thing? haha) but does all these traits of mine make me a sucker at school too? think so. hah. im not ready for tuition yet. the previous experience wasnt very pleasant and the feeling of being occupied on maybe 2 days a week for the next few months wasnt good.
so..... what can i do? haha
the stuff we're studying isnt easy. thought it would be alright at least in the beginning but theres a lot of reading to do. and the speed the lecturers go at are horrible. if anyone thought some jc teachers were fast u should try my lecturers out. haha and theres my maths lecturer. she talks to HERSELF! its not the volume even. its just all the mumbling and the speed. some crazy pok. haha my ibm tchr is alright, i like the way he presents himself and engages our attention. its diff to sleep but hes damn fast too! and he always ask us to read read read. argh. the econs guy, the only chinese tchr i have (if im not wrong the rest are all indians. what a coincidence haha) has a face like a bulldog, but not even half as cute. he has this weird sense of humour that i cant really catch sometimes. haha. econs sounds difficult.
everyone else is happily settling down in their hostels. living away from home, having freedom, learning to become independent, sharing rooms with their good friends, having fun camps and parties, having SPs etc etc. am i jealous or what man. i am! but what to do. gotta make the best out of what i have, lah.
oh and the only cca that seems to exist in SIM is ODAC. and there was a night cycling activity organised by them last wk or something. a huge bunch of people joined. haha ultra deprived school. no variety. im not blaming anyone in the school for this. but really.. it sucks. oh yeah maybe theres some kinda comfort, i've seen quite a lot of good looking people in the school! haha good to have eye candy around. guys and girls alike. who said SIM is that grey?! (but. the whole school is really v cold. as in literally. too much aircon everywhere.)
ok im satisfied by this post. and i just read the newspaper (ok i scanned through it) WOW. haha..
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